07 February 00
Today I was officially welcomed into the future residency of the building I spend almost all my time in, so that’s a good thing. I suppose I can check off one more thing on my page-long list of things to worry about. Besides that, I’ve been thinking about homework and my mental girl-related problems, and the half-dozen addictive as hell computer games I could play to ignore those more important things.
A friend of mine tried to convince me that I am fortunate that I don’t have to put any effort into going and buying a girl a Valentine’s day card/gift/whatever this year. I tried to politely tell her that anything is worth the feeling that a special person would share a piece of her heart with me. Ooo, but I get to save $3.25! $3.25 out of Hallmark’s pocket and back into mine! Bwa ha ha.
I should probably stop sounding so sappy. I went with my sister to see ‘Down to You.’ Given the title, I thought it’d be some sort of space-alien assassin movie, but it turned out to be a chick flick.
I’ve been thinking a lot about honestly and openness lately. People don’t tell a lot of things to most people. Good chance there’s a lot of lying going on. I’ve been trying to think about how much I lie, but I can’t think of any recent times I’ve lied. My only conclusion is that I either don’t lie, or I’m just so good at lying that I don’t even notice when I do it. I’ll guess it’s the first one, since lying tends to make everything complicated and I can barely keep track of things without extraneous crap to remember. On a related note, I wish girls were more receptive to honesty. This past week, I was on the receiving end of more confusion than necessary, both from girls my age in Gainesville, strangers from Idaho or Brazil, or girls half my age in eastern Europe.
I am rambling. Time to stop. Must sleep. Blah blah blah.